Ash is in hospital

grandpaul said:

no, no, NO! Wiping up the blood is how they get the FINGERPRINTS!

hee hee

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I be wearing gloves, plenty here and i will denie everything, officer i am innocent i tell you, it wasn't me.

Ran into another one this afternoon, the afternoon tea lady coming around instead of having my normal 2 cups of tea i felt like a cold choc milk drink, no no you can't have that its a high proten drink, fu ck i went off my handle one fu cking glass of choc milk, yet when i was in the main hospital i had 2 glasses of choc milk every afternoon.
This place is starting to get to me, instead of being a cool headed person who just wants to get back to a near normal life i seem to be running into problems with people who have to much control, the excape plan is starting to look good.
I can't fu cking win which ever way i go, one glass of choc milk, how the fu ck is that going cause any problems.

Ash

ashman said:

I be wearing gloves, plenty here and i will denie everything, officer i am innocent i tell you, it wasn't me.

Ran into another one this afternoon, the afternoon tea lady coming around instead of having my normal 2 cups of tea i felt like a cold choc milk drink, no no you can't have that its a high proten drink, fu ck i went off my handle one fu cking glass of choc milk, yet when i was in the main hospital i had 2 glasses of choc milk every afternoon.
This place is starting to get to me, instead of being a cool headed person who just wants to get back to a near normal life i seem to be running into problems with people who have to much control, the excape plan is starting to look good.
I can't fu cking win which ever way i go, one glass of choc milk, how the fu ck is that going cause any problems.

Ash

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Your wife, your dog, your bike, your home....
You are missing your FREEDOM!!

ashman said:

I be wearing gloves, plenty here and i will denie everything, officer i am innocent i tell you, it wasn't me.

Ran into another one this afternoon, the afternoon tea lady coming around instead of having my normal 2 cups of tea i felt like a cold choc milk drink, no no you can't have that its a high proten drink, fu ck i went off my handle one fu cking glass of choc milk, yet when i was in the main hospital i had 2 glasses of choc milk every afternoon.
This place is starting to get to me, instead of being a cool headed person who just wants to get back to a near normal life i seem to be running into problems with people who have to much control, the excape plan is starting to look good.
I can't fu cking win which ever way i go, one glass of choc milk, how the fu ck is that going cause any problems.

Ash

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Too much protein, it'll probably make you fart....

Hang in there, home time is getting nearer.

non illegitumus carborundum

Ash I feel for you ! .... I get the same shit all the way over here , the Dr.'s tell me stage 4 cancer going to kill ya , should stop smoking , drinking & having fun ... I had to laugh out loud at her , things have been awkward since .... I say stick to your guns Ash , drink your beer and laugh as much as possible

concours said:

Your wife, your dog, your bike, your home....
You are missing your FREEDOM!!

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Well not so much the wife as she is in the bed across from me in the same room, told them to put her in another room before she came here, seems i been punished more lol, no not really but then, she can over work the nurses because of her injuries and the way she has to lay in bed, but now she is getting around in her wheel chair, she is still a learner driver on it so i can still get away from her.
But yes i am missing my bike, my old dog and my freedom, the care is great here but i just want to get home, back to near a normal life, except with a missing lower leg, so much to get use too, its not easy even with crutchers and 6 months of learning to walk again, but once i get my leg i will cut that down to 3 months.
I have cancled this year, its ìs recovery year and next year be a new start for both Debra and me, but it be hard to forget what we are both going through as there are going to some bad days a head before it gets better.
Was our oldest daughters birthday today and we couldn't spend it with her but i shouted her and her over weight boy friend to a lovely chinese meal at our favorite place, but she dropped in to see us both before then, she is doing so much for us i love her so much and her boy friend is still a over weight boof head.

Ash

It should be beyond debate that a high protein diet is needed when the body is in a state of recovery as yours is Ash.

Don’t let the bastard cut yer bacon !!

My freedom has been completely taken away and i don't like it, controled by others, even being married to Debra for 35 years she never kept mè on a leach, i had my freedom to do what ever i liked, she never once let me stop doing the things i always done.
Being here is like a prison, the doctors are the wardons, the nurses are the guards, the wardsmen are excons given jobs after they been paroled lol, the cleaners, well one anyway is a snich who spies on you and dobs you in when you play up, then you also have others controling you when you are allowed release.
Everything is run on time, when you eat, take your drugs, do your workouts etc etc, fu ck i need to get out of here and all i am thinking while here is excaping as parole seems to far away, they write everything down and punish you when you do something wrong and worst if you complain, setbacks happen.
Its just after 3 am i better get out of the tunnel and cleaned up before the next patrol comes around lol., they sneek into your room checking on you, yes you belong to us now and you have no say in what we do to you, fu ck let me out of here before i go insane, anger and depression gets to you as your freedon has been taken away, but i am not going to let the bastards win, but i have had some upsetting days as it does take its toll on you when all you want is to go home.

Ash

ashman said:

My freedom has been completely taken away and i don't like it, controled by others, even being married to Debra for 35 years she never kept mè on a leach, i had my freedom to do what ever i liked, she never once let me stop doing the things i always done.
Being here is like a prison, the doctors are the wardons, the nurses are the guards, the wardsmen are excons given jobs after they been paroled lol, the cleaners, well one anyway is a snich who spies on you and dobs you in when you play up, then you also have others controling you when you are allowed release.
Everything is run on time, when you eat, take your drugs, do your workouts etc etc, fu ck i need to get out of here and all i am thinking while here is excaping as parole seems to far away, they write everything down and punish you when you do something wrong and worst if you complain, setbacks happen.
Its just after 3 am i better get out of the tunnel and cleaned up before the next patrol comes around lol., they sneek into your room checking on you, yes you belong to us now and you have no say in what we do to you, fu ck let me out of here before i go insane, anger and depression gets to you as your freedon has been taken away, but i am not going to let the bastards win, but i have had some upsetting days as it does take its toll on you when all you want is to go home.

Ash

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So, I don't know the rules/laws/insurance/etc. there, but here a hospital is not a jail and you can leave at anytime. Is there some specific legal, medical, or financial reason why you simply cannot leave?

ashman said:

My freedom has been completely taken away and i don't like it, controled by others, even being married to Debra for 35 years she never kept mè on a leach, i had my freedom to do what ever i liked, she never once let me stop doing the things i always done.
Being here is like a prison, the doctors are the wardons, the nurses are the guards, the wardsmen are excons given jobs after they been paroled lol, the cleaners, well one anyway is a snich who spies on you and dobs you in when you play up, then you also have others controling you when you are allowed release.
Everything is run on time, when you eat, take your drugs, do your workouts etc etc, fu ck i need to get out of here and all i am thinking while here is excaping as parole seems to far away, they write everything down and punish you when you do something wrong and worst if you complain, setbacks happen.
Its just after 3 am i better get out of the tunnel and cleaned up before the next patrol comes around lol., they sneek into your room checking on you, yes you belong to us now and you have no say in what we do to you, fu ck let me out of here before i go insane, anger and depression gets to you as your freedon has been taken away, but i am not going to let the bastards win, but i have had some upsetting days as it does take its toll on you when all you want is to go home.

Ash

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Ash, I know it must be tough, but try and remember that they do all of this, control diet and exercise, keep a tight routine, etc in order to try and maximise your recovery ability.

The last thing they want is to send folk home, only for them to fail and end up back in hospital…

Greg i can leave but it the long term recovery that would be set back, our hospital system is free here and with losing a leg there be other set backs down the road and getting the new leg would be held up as well the learning to walk again.
We might not like it but i have to abide to the rules and lost of freedom etc for things to happen, its just a slow process and recovery is also slow.
It might feel like a prison in what i say but i do need the help as i just can't walk out of here, as i do have a missing lower leg, and i do need the long term help even losing my freedom i need all the help i can.
As i say this year has been canceled this year for both Debra and myself, recovery, abide by the rules get the care we both need, get paroled and start a fresh next year.
What i say in my writings is a way for me to deal with a situation of not our fault serouse injuries and the other person at fault walks without injuries, but i am sure she has suffered in what has happened as she had to watch them work on us to save our lives for 1 1/2hrs before they took us away to hospital and the damage she has caused from her mistake that has change Debra and my life forever and the freedom we both have lost for now while in care of others.
Lucky she was insured and covered as we will be compensatered down the road but our lives will never be the same as before, yes i lost my freedom for awhile but i back as will Debra but it won't be the same, it be harder but we will get there, it all takes time with help from everyone and that is the most important thing for our recovery, i might not like it but thats the way it is and a bit of humor thrown in helps me to get over a bad situation as it could have been worst for both of us.

Ash

You have each other too Ash and will get the willpower from each other to get strong again together

with help from your friends and canines too