Been nearly a week since my last report, a bit of frustration has set in so been a bit quiet, my rehab is going well after Friday session with Peter, he put me through my hip works and next session on Wednesday he is taking me for a walk around the hospital grounds over a few hills and inclines instead of walking on flat ground, he is going to be surprised as I have already done hills as walking up to our local bakery up the road from me is a hill climb for me so I should be advance to what he expects lol.
Peter had a close look at the foot fitting to my peg leg and was amazed of it quality and said I have a top of the range foot and fitting, the hospital made leg wouldn't come close to the workmanship of my new leg.
My frustration has nothing to do with my rehab with walking but with the hoops I got to jump through to get back with driving and dealing with the OT person working for the CTP insurer and doing driving lessons to prove I can manage driving using my left foot and having to get a medical certificate to say I can drive with a left accelerator peddle fitted, I proved the first lesson I had no problems driving the modified dual control training car the instructor was very impressed with my first drive last week, she phoned me today and ask if I was ready for another session in the car next Monday, fu ck yeah, the CTP insurer is paying for 4 more lessons, before they will pay for our car modification with the accelerator peddle, it's just pissing me off having to go through all this B S from no fault of my own just from another person mistake.
Well my doctor had no problems filling out the medical certificate and she is so amazed in the quick progress I have made in the short time I had my new leg, in fact everyone I know can't believe how fast I have adapted to walking again as well from day one after our accident, but I am so wanting to get on with my life a soon as I can, I been wearing my new leg for most of the day now and rehab can't believe in how long I been wearing it without any problems with the stump and skin, they are a bit worried I might be pushing too fast, but as I told them, the new leg is comfortable and I would know if things weren't right, but so far all good, I only want to go forward and not backwards, I know my own body and so far so good.
Well before the weekend I am hopping to get the lift table set up in the workshop and get a mate over to help get the Norton up on it, the urge to start the ES install is getting stronger, nearly 7 months now and I got itchy fingers in getting on the bike, then there be more hoops to jump through, but fu ck them I need to get out on 2 wheels sooner than later, I need to get my freedom back again, at the moment I feel trapped in my own house/yard and I am taking it out on Debra when she is driving me around in our new car, she scares me being in the passenger seat and she is not used to driving a modern car with all the bells and whistles, she over corrects herself with the touchy electric power steering, I am trying to help her get used to it but she don't listen to me, so I stay scared when she is behind the wheel, she a good driver but think the accident has done something to her skill behind a wheel, something is not right and she struggling to get back on top, but then she has gone through a lot and still suffering from her injuries, she hasn't handle it as well as I have and I can see it in her.
I see it in her eyes the pain she has gone through and the tears she gets in her eyes, the anger she gets when she is in pain, it has affected both our lives from our accident but more so with Debra, my pain went away when they took my lower leg off, but Debra injuries/pain will be with her forever and there is nothing I can do to help her, but she will get on top of it, it just will take time, but I will always be there for her, it has pulled us together again and she a strong woman with help from me, but it's not been easy for both of us.
Our youngest daughter Rose had pulled away from both Debra and myself and her older sister over the years with a lot of problems she was going through, but our accident has brought her back to us and now she made it in the police force and she spending more time with us now compared to all those bad years from us, something she has woken up too and accepted she made a lot of mistakes and listening to people giving her bad advice and she now realized she made a lot of bad decisions in her younger life, but I always stuck with her, her and me are so alike its not funny, but I am so proud of her.
Well I think I have rambled on too much but it has helped me, although its been a bad last week with the frustrations hitting me hard, but I am a strong person and nothing is going to get in my way of getting back on the road again whether car or bike getting my freedom back again, getting on top of things and no more jumping through hoops to prove anything to no body, I am going to take control of my life again and fu ck everyone who gets in my way, I had enough of all the B S that we both have to go through, we didn't cause the accident but it seems both Debra and me are the ones suffering the most, not going to give into the bastards, I just want to get back on with my life so time to take control again.
Ashley